I am my lover's and He is mine.

As a kid I loved watching Disney princess movies.

Ok...ok....I still do : )

 Growing up, I have always been a dreamer, and “lost in my head” (so-to-speak).

I loved it because it really strengthened my imagination. However, maybe it wasn't always a good thing, because reality never seemed as exciting as the daydreams in my head.

 Until...I abandoned my life to Christ. Now, adventures that I dreamed up in my mind, actually come to life. They are even better than I conjured up.

One of the typical things I daydreamed about as a little girl was meeting “the one”.

Disney movies didn't help me, because I grew up thinking that is how it would happen.

He would take one look at me from way across the other side of the room, and immediately know he couldn't live without me.

Wow! Way to toot my own horn...right?

Way to make it all about me.

In this time of waiting...God has been teaching me a lot, about what it is like to be a partner and a wife.

Reality is :

1. Jesus is the true Lover of my soul. He didn't design me to put so much pressure on a fallen man to be my everything, to never disappoint, and to always be romantic. It is impossible for an earthly man to fill this role. Only Jesus, who is perfection, has what it takes. Why do I long for this so much? So He could fulfill this desire in my life. I long for this...because I long for Him. Women...we will find so much more peace when we put our desires and our perspectives in the right order.
2. Jesus has pursued us in an even more glorious way than in the movies...He pursued us and loved us, even before we were beautiful....when we were covered in shame and blood.

Ezekiel 16: 4 On the day you were born your cord was not cut, nor were you washed with water to make you clean, nor were you rubbed with salt or wrapped in cloths. 5 No one looked on you with pity or had compassion enough to do any of these things for you. Rather, you were thrown out into the open field, for on the day you were born you were despised.

 6 “‘Then I passed by and saw you kicking about in your blood, and as you lay there in your blood I said to you, “Live!” I made you grow like a plant of the field. You grew and developed and entered puberty. Your breasts had formed and your hair had grown, yet you were stark naked.
 8 “‘Later I passed by, and when I looked at you and saw that you were old enough for love, I spread the corner of my garment over you and covered your naked body. I gave you my solemn oath and entered into a covenant with you, declares the Sovereign LORD, and you became mine.
  9 “‘I bathed you with water and washed the blood from you and put ointments on you. 10 I clothed you with an embroidered dress and put sandals of fine leather on you. I dressed you in fine linen and covered you with costly garments. 11 I adorned you with jewelry: I put bracelets on your arms and a necklace around your neck, 12 and I put a ring on your nose, earrings on your ears and a beautiful crown on your head. 13 So you were adorned with gold and silver; your clothes were of fine linen and costly fabric and embroidered cloth. Your food was honey, olive oil and the finest flour. You became very beautiful and rose to be a queen. 14 And your fame spread among the nations on account of your beauty, because the splendor I had given you made your beauty perfect, declares the Sovereign LORD.

So what does it mean then to be a wife?

What I am learning is that the real romance comes from my relationship with the Lord. That is where I put my hope. That is where my real desire to be pursued and adored comes true.

I am called to serve the earthly man (future husband) in love...meaning that I put his needs before my own and I push him towards the Father. In doing so, the Lord will do a work in him that will transform him into the man, the warrior, and the leader that God has always intended him to be.

Where are you placing the treasure of your heart, your desires, and your hope? Is it in fallen man, or is it in the One, who has the power to fully captivate your heart and romance your soul...Jesus?